De Party Nails
I will not be naked for the show but I WILL be exposing myself, emotionally
Originally posted on Instagram on October 24 2023
I will not be naked for the show but I WILL be exposing myself, emotionally, and I might try to do something I don’t do on a regular basis like bend over backwards while also trying to hit all the notes. This is all a normal part of trying to “give you something to talk about” (Bonnie Rait wrote a song about it, or maybe it was about Love…). Songwriting is one thing, but giving you the physical experience of the emotions is just as important to me. I can’t act, I can only go back to an emotional place I have been to before. Every time I perform for you I go back, even when I’m scared to. I learned this performing at open mics when I was a teenager—it’s always worth it to go back, ESPECIALLY when you’re scared to. If you can’t make it to the show tonight, I’ll be writhing and vocalizing a whole host of feelings for you anyway. The confusion, the anger, the self destruction, the desperation, the contentedness, the joy, the unbearable need to show up for your loved ones, the unshakable sense that you may disintegrate if you simply continue. I can’t help but write it all down and set it to music. Thank you for bearing witness. It is one of the gifts of my life to be seen. If I don’t see you tonight, I hope to see you irl sooner than later; it’s been too long and this album has been gestating for longer than we ever expected it to…it’s juuuust about time to share it. Love to you and yours 🙏 ~Party Nails